Posted by ksvt on November 20, 2000, at 20:39:29
In reply to Re: Vaya con Dios Hannah, posted by B Day on November 20, 2000, at 12:43:21
>Hannah - I really hope you're ok. I came to this Board tonight in a pretty horrible frame of mind. I had an appointment with my therapist today where we mostly just talkied about how the last couple of years of therapy have done very little to curb my rather rampant and persistent suicidal ideation. I've come to look at it as an untreatable symptom that is just a part of me now and not necessarily related to depression. It's a pretty awful thought that I'm just going to spend the rest of my life drifting in and out of states where I'm either not thinking about myself at all, or ruminating all the time and feeling very self destructive. I can't figure out what's worse, worrying that I'm wasting my time in therapy or worrying that my therapist is going to bail out on me out of a sense of pure frustration that I can't seem to get it. I know this is probably an unintended result of your posts, but reading through this thread, has forced me to direct myself outward. What you've been going through sounds alot worse than my preoccupations. I hope things start looking up for you. Pax ksvt
Hannah,
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> I'm also sorry to see you go. You seemed to be having a pretty rough time of it last night.
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> As I mentioned last night, you will be missed.
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> Prays and best wishes,
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> B
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