Posted by laural on October 23, 2000, at 9:59:36
In reply to Re: Rzip » laural, posted by Rzip on October 22, 2000, at 14:49:59
You actually remind me of a friend i once had. she was very intelligent, but seemed somehow hollow to me. like she was afraid to trust people and really open up so instead she went for the shock value and tried to be very--i dunno, it was like she needed people to love her so badly that it drove people away because she would suck them dry. i guess that might describe a lot of us on this board from time to time. she didn't know the limits of our friendship, we were so close, in such a co-dependant sort of way that she thought it would be perfectly acceptable to "share" my boyfriend with me. i really don't think she meant any harm by it, but she never seemed to know the difference of right and wrong, and boundaries. she claims that she had had no trauma as a child but her doc diagnosed her as borderline personality disorder. i think i'm however reading too much into what you write. as an aside, are you asian by any chance? it would be interesting to me to see how asians deal with depression as i have known few in my life that have mental illness. anyway, my friend was also into self-hurting and we often sat an cut on ourselves. i really got the impression that she had very low self-esteem and sought to improve her self-esteem by being sexually intimate with many people. she also often used to threaten suicide and once when she really was trying to die, i had to track her down all over the city to take her to the ER for an OD. please don't be offended if this does not describe you at all, after all, i have never met you and haven't really read yoiur past posts
i think it would be helpful for me to know about things you think are significant to you in the past---write back, laural
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