Posted by ksvt on October 15, 2000, at 16:06:13
In reply to Re: Long, Depressing Response...wisdom?, posted by chdurie2 on October 11, 2000, at 16:13:39
> > Mark--
> >
> > I disagree--the *subject* of your post is depression, its effect is anything but. It is stunningly eloquent, and true eloquence is a thing of rare beauty--always uplifting, regardless of subject.
> >
> > I believe that one's greatest gift (and most valuable possession) is not compassion, but understanding. Understanding unlocks the door through which compassion must enter to be experienced.
> >
> > Thank you for the beautiful gift--and welcome back! You were missed.
> >
> > Well wishes---medlib
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> mark h. - your long, beautiful response was pretty depressing, i say, as tears come to my eyes. but i hope you know - and i think you do from your other postings - that depression needs no apology.
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> what i don't understand, and maybe it's rude to interject your poetry with rational stuff - as this is something i'm struggling with myself - is that as low as you go, you seem to be aware of times when you weren't so low, and you can tell yourself that your depression won't last forever.
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> for myself, my depression feels like an "always," although i must admit i'm sick and tired of being depressed. recently, i've started to have little "news flashes" within myself, that my depression doesn't have to be an "always." on sunday, when i fell into a horrible depression and called my p-doc for some "emergency" help, i found myself saying, "i know i'm not being rational." He told me to go on, and i found myself starting to say and feel like i could believe some positive stuff. i kind of ended the conversation by saying, "maybe i should go psych myself into this stuff." and he said "yes."
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> so my question is: if you can see the "up" side,
> then why are you so depressed? (not meant critically) or is it that your "up" observations and your depression are divorced? perhaps this is meant rhetorically, or perhaps i sense that you have a wisdom about handling depression that maybe you do or don't have. Make sense?
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> I don't know. As i sit here at 5 p.m., still in my pajamas, having started the day determined to face things i need to do, and having gotten waylaid by this website and other i-net things, i'm feeling pretty discouraged. i didn't mean to turn my compliment about your posting into my own pouring out, but i guess it turned out that way.
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> do you have any wisdom you'd care to share? and thanks for the compliment on my own writing.
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> guess it's time to get dressed and do something.
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> carolineCaroline - excuse my digression and nosiness, but you wrote elsewhere about not wanting to take your law boards until you got a certain score on a certain test. What's that all about? It sounds like you're headed in some positive direction. ksvt
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