Posted by allisonm on September 6, 2000, at 20:52:39
In reply to When is it time to give up?, posted by Lexie on September 3, 2000, at 19:12:51
I have suffered from major depression for years, I think. Was diagnosed almost 3 years ago. Some bad things happened not long after diagnosis and only now am I able to see that I am pretty much through the grief and ready to tackle the original issues.
Also it has taken this long to find meds that brought me to where I'm not constantly thinking about giving up this life. Last winter I debated every day whether to quit my meds and psychotherapy. I was so sick of everything and was ready to accept the consequences, thinking death would be a good thing because I honestly saw no point in my existence. I held on. In April my meds were changed around again and I'm finally feeling better.
It can happen for you too, Lexie. It may not be perfect or permanent, and crappy things in life still will happen, but relief is attainable.
Tonight coming out of the grocery store I marveled at how beautiful the sky was. The setting sun turned the whispy streaks of cirrus clouds pink, the sky was deep blue and the moon was rising with a ring around it. The air was cool and it felt like fall. A few months ago I would not have seen or felt any of this. I am glad I stuck around.
Take care and best wishes.
Allison
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