Posted by Phil on September 4, 2000, at 8:15:30
In reply to Re: Lessons, posted by tina on September 3, 2000, at 20:47:37
Tina, I wish that were true of me. Actually I'm still very depressed and, last night for instance, I was again trying to find some reason to go on. I'm a pretty flaky personality and very easily reasoned off course by well-meaning people. Most times, the only saving grace for me is that I haven't given up..I THINK ABOUT IT ALMOST EVERY MINUTE OF EVERY DAY.
I think out loud alot on this board and mean well but I always have trouble following through.
And, like you, I feel very unfulfilled in my life. I see people around me everyday who have love in their lives, friends they hang out with. I hear laughter from others that is real and from all outward appearances, some folks are fairly content with life.
When I hear anticipation from others over some thing they're going to do all I think about is the fact that I will be at home alone. Once again hoping that someday I'll have peace.
We all deserve it and it's available but, with me, so near but yet so far.
Peace, Phil
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