Posted by AdaGrace on December 19, 2004, at 17:44:36
In reply to How long does it take, posted by AdaGrace on December 19, 2004, at 13:42:46
I met someone else whom I thought I could relate to, but time and time again he kept being mean and hateful to me, and time and time again I went back for it. Today, more abuse I didn't ask for but got anyway. Now I am a c**t who is seriously flawed. Emotionally wrecked, I ask for the abuse, why does it hurt so much when I get it? I'm spiraling downward in this life, hurting more, opening up when I say I'm not going to. I can't harden my heart, it hurts. I can't stop drinking, and I just keep trying to meet my prince charming so I can live hapily ever after.....I am so seriously twisted. painfully twisted. I need to be told I am a bad person so I remember that I am. I'm so scared that I won't live through this latest abuse.
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