Posted by rjlockhart37 on January 23, 2015, at 23:37:36
i had a bit of wine earlier today, it's totally worn off, for some reason alcohol makes me want to sleep, or be in a vary depressed mood, only the 30min onset is there a mood lift, but ... that's not really the issue that is causing this, i took my zyprexa a 10 min ago so...but .... i posted about the paranoia stage in 2009 that made me completly out of my mind, thinking the world was watching me through goverment satillities, i thought the entire goverment was being redone, and goveerment agents where tracking me, i mean, for safetly reasons the govrment does moniter people, but this .. i thought everyone had a got a flu shot vacinne and had a biochemical, ughhh nevermind i don't rerember that phase,
it's just .. when your supertistious you notice things, symbols, pattern, black cats, loose associations, i didnt used to be like this, previously i had ADHD and very difficult in doing simple things, but after time paranoia started, after being thrown into rehab, and other stuff also too it's like i started becoming superstitious, paranoid that im being gosspiped about, i can't think well right now, im just scared, thinking a spirit got in somewhere and caused animosity, and bad events happening, and then stay invisble to make me look crazy
end......cut my ties from this post, just my thoughts
r
not a scholar but understand distress.....
"unheard pain, is the told through good company"
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