Posted by happyflower123 on November 12, 2014, at 21:06:21
Hello PB world,
I thought I'd try this pb out to see if any of the old timers are still here or of course new friends are welcomed too. I'm going through termination with my T I have had for 6 years now. She has been incredible with me and I really did a lot of trauma work with her and I have learned a lot about emotions and myself. It is SO stinkin' hard to go through this. I have 2 appointments left. But we are working through it and I will be okay. It will be my first healthy relationship ending I have ever had.
My family is moving and I am losing a lot, my family doctor, hair stylist, but most of all- my safe place other than home with my T. I am seeing a new T and that is hard too because you have to start all over and go over all your history and well it is very triggering. You have to to reestablish a safe place for trauma work.
I was looking up old Babble posts tonight to get a timeline of my relationship with my first T to describe the trauma I went through with him in therapy, and while I got a lot of chuckles in the beginning of the relationship, I am completely disgusted by how inappropriate and abusive my formal T was. Therapy isn't suppose to cause trauma, but it did. What really sucks, is that I still run into that turkey, even several hours out of town.
It's interesting that when reading old babble posts, that in hindsight I can see it was a train wreak waiting to happen with my old T. I guess it comes down to responsibility and he did take his responsibility serious enough in our relationship to keep himself in check. He should have sought out consultation or supervision. I am not sure if anyone remembers this stuff that happened almost 8 years ago, but I thought I would just drop a little note that has now turned into a huge letter to Babble. haha!Thanks,
A much healthier Happyflower
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