Posted by alexandra_k on November 8, 2014, at 17:22:47
In reply to Hospital has me tagged as a frequent flyer, posted by k9lover on November 4, 2014, at 15:15:46
Once upon a time... I was tagged as a frequent flyer, yeah. The crisis team people had something on my file to the effect of DO NOT ADMIT. So I'd phone them when I was in crisis and the conversation would go something like:
'are you thinking of killing yourself'
yes
'you can't phone us and threaten suicide, you are being manipulative!'
or no
'then why are you wasting the valuable time of the crisis team?'
I got to do DBT... After that the conversation would go
no matter what I said
'go and practice your skills, dear'.
It was a horrible time of my life, for sure. I needed help because I didn't know how to cope myself... But nobody would give me the help that I needed. I remember being angry and frustrated and so on and so forth... Why wouldn't anybody help me?
I guess from my perspective now I can see that a lot of them didn't know how to help me. And for those who did, a lot of them weren't able to do what they knew, because of resource limitations.
I have come through the other side... But I needed to move to a different country for a while. I suppose I got much (much) closer to the help that I thought I needed during my time over there. I suppose... It did help me.
I've since moved back - but to a different area so my health record hasn't followed me around. I had a (surprisingly) good interaction within one part of the service. Then moved and had a bad one. What seems to be in common with the bad ones is my need exceeding their resource limitations.
Anyway... I think I have come through the other side...
But I guess I'm well aware that I do in fact need a little help sometimes.. And while the world is all like 'we will help you! just ask for help! why oh why didn't they ask for help!' it is words words words words words most often spouted by people who don't at all understand anything of the meaning behind them... The world is full of people crying out for help and people are too busy spouting about how helpful they are / wanting to be to help...
helping you helping you helping you (Helping me)
mmmhmmm.
I hope things feel better for you soon.
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