Posted by Omidak on September 15, 2013, at 12:38:20
Hi, sorry for bad language i'm sort of german. sort of. I'm new here. One of those who won't get a proper diagnosis no matter what they do and try to self diagnose. currently I'm diagnosed schizophrenic/schizoaffective (supposedly)
So recently, as smart as I am (not particularly smart obviously) I noticed that I'm extremely reluctant to do ANYTHING useful. It's not laziness, it's not demotivation. It's extreme aversion against anything that I believe is good for me (like goig to college, like learning the guitar. like going out, getting to know new people.) the more my head sais something i could do is good for me, the bigger the aversion (goes with stuff people tell me to do). I read a book (somehow i found it on the web. I didnt even try to download it but it was just there) listed the different types of Avoidant Personalities and i dont fit any of them.
Then I read about Negativism schizophrenics with catatonia and babies have and they basically do the opposite of what they are told to do. I read somewhere else that the rebelious behaviour of teenagers is somewhat similar.
So, my question is, is it possible to have a mild form of the Negativism seen in Catatonic Stupor and always do the opposite of what you wanna do? or not to do what you/ others want you to do ACTIVELY and WILLFULLY? I bet what i have is NOT negative symptoms. I refuse to do stuff Actively, and with very strong will. only if i could reverse the direction of this "will".
So basically is it possible to have (mild form of catatonic) negativism? and what could be the reason? or do I just have avoidant personality disorder unrelated to the schizophrenia?
cheers
Omid
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