Posted by alexandra_k on December 31, 2012, at 4:45:18
In reply to Re: test, posted by alexandra_k on December 31, 2012, at 4:34:00
and so that is me, really.
three hours a day of focused writing.
that is what careers are based on.
apparently.
that is what i've been told now by a number of academics...
and they have (from my perspective) incredibly successful careers, so i guess they'd know.
(of course there is more to it than that. there is the making progress on it rather than going round in circles on it. there is the timing of knowing when to keep working on it vs sending it off. there is the nous in figuring out where to send it. there is (probably) other stuff to be doing, too. reading. figuring out what to write about next. teaching etc. before you know it philosophy consumes you... that is what academic is, really... a snowball in your life... but really... is it such a bad life? the answer to that is: no. it is not a bad life.
so
uh
why does it feel like such a bad life sometimes? like i can't possibly bear to participate in it?)
i think it might be self doubt
i don't deserve it
i'm not good enough
there isn't anything to distinguish me from the puppies
there shouldn't be anything to distinguish me from the puppies
i can't do itbut then reading what other stuff gets published...
and i KNOW that i can.
it is just doing it is all.
i think it is about reminding myself daily:
what is my other option?
not fitting in with the puppies, that is what.
a life of distraction... computer games...
posts like this (perhaps)
getting nowhere fast?
i don't know...i miss my therapist.
he was always trying to help me be productive
and i was being belligerent, i think...
hmm.
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