Posted by Dinah on October 28, 2012, at 11:13:12
In reply to Re: My mother, posted by Twinleaf on October 27, 2012, at 9:41:38
It's hard to explain.
It's not that I think she's especially powerful. In her dealings with her family, she wins the battles and loses the war. I think she's indescribably foolish in her choices. My father, in his later days, would yell at her that he wished she was dead. My brother and I tend to duck and run. We don't do as she wishes, by any means. I actually confront her on a semiregular basis, and avoid her more often.
I remember feeling scorn when she'd flounced out of the house angry for a few hours or days, and come back and scream about the state of the house or whatever. I'd think she was an idiot for making us wish she'd stayed away. I remember watching her scream and yell one day. She was yelling that I was no longer her daughter. She was all wild eyed and red faced. And I felt... nothing.
I've seen a service man make fun of her and her ridiculous beliefs, while she didn't recognize that he was making her a figure of fun.
Powerful? No. Not really.
But of immense will? Absolutely. She'll go after what she thinks she wants and let nothing stand in her way. She'll get it or die trying. And if it's beyond her scope, she'll simply reimagine the world to fit her viewpoint. She'll wear us down one way or another, or scare us from our purpose. She has the will to move mountains.
What she doesn't have is the wisdom to move them to better her life.
poster:Dinah
thread:1029913
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/psycho/20120922/msgs/1030067.html