Posted by Tabitha on June 7, 2012, at 2:08:39
Folks, I think I'm finally going to do it. After 18 years I'm done. Unfortunately my therapist doesn't agree with me. She said some things trying to talk me out of it that really hurt. Look I know I'm not the picture of mental health and smooth functioning. I'm getting by. I feel bad a lot of the time, but that's always been me. 18 years of therapy hasn't made much of a dent in that. I value the listening and the emotional support, just not enough to budget the $800-1000 a month for it.
I don't know why I haven't developed the magical therapist bond I'm supposed to develop, but I haven't. Maybe that's lucky-- at least I didn't develop the painful in love with the therapist syndrome that happens to so many.
Stuff she said really hurt. Wow, it's like someone in your family or your partner that knows your weak spots and your innermost fears and can just puncture you with words. Well for me anyway. I'm not so sure of myself to brush off such remarks.
You guys will probably tell me I just didn't have the right therapist.