Posted by Willful on February 26, 2012, at 15:29:40
In reply to Re: I think I'm getting depressed » sigismund, posted by Dinah on February 26, 2012, at 9:54:30
One thing though is that depression really is separate from the thoughts that we ascribe it to.
Even if things like turning fifty and thinking that you'll be turned down by rescue organization and that you can get the "seniors" rate at the theatre, and all that-- even if that stuff is a bummer, I think depression really is separate from all that.
I find that when I'm depressed I will find something to be depressed about. There are lots of things one can hang one's unhappiness or agitation on. But yet, the next day, when I'm not so depressed, when my meds are working better or whatever, suddenly things things vanish, though they are just as true.
So finally I've come to believe (not just "know") that the frightening or demoralizing ideas that I hang my depression on, and which I used to think caused it, are really just convenient ways of explaining it to myself. Things that can be the reason for, and point of my suffering.
But they really aren't. And the more true and the more awful they are, of course, the more convincing it is to think they're a cause. But the causes, whatever they are, lie deeper and elsewhere. The real challenge is to discover where and to learn how to cope with, and maybe transform whatever it is. I'm not anywhere near that, but at least I do try to remind myself as often as I can. It doesn't change my mood per se-- but it gives me a chance.