Posted by obsidian on February 25, 2011, at 22:27:17
How many klonopin can I take? And for what?
I don't think I want to die, but I feel like I should take a bunch of those.
Let's research how many pills people have taken. How much kills a person? What comes close?
For two days I thought about how I could hurt myself.
And then all I did was go to sleep, because that's all there was to do. And when I woke up the next morning, thought again about how many, and had an amount in mind, but I wondered how dangerous that might be.
So, instead I stopped taking my medications and cancelled my t and Pdoc appointments. I tried to be fairly casual about the matter, because I didn't know what else to say.
I didn't know why I was thinking that way, but I figured who cares anyway? I was annoying for thinking that way, and I didn't think it was right to subject anyone to that.
As it turns out annoying Pdoc does Phone appointments. He asked me how I was taking my medications, to be sure about the dosage and amounts I was taking....usual Pdoc stuff. Well I had no way of answering that question, because I wasn't taking them. Yes, I was having thoughts of hurting myself. There's nothing to be done about that. And just yesterday I spoke in t about that, and that was about three weeks ago, and I have been dragging myself through this since. I don't have those thoughts anymore, but I am not sure why I had them, and whether it was manipulative in some sort of way. I really didn't know what to do with myself.
If anyone reads this and has any idea about what that was about, let me know.
Thanks, sid
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