Posted by pegasus on February 7, 2011, at 10:49:01
In reply to Re: nausea Willful and Annierose » Willful, posted by Annabelle Smith on February 6, 2011, at 23:24:52
Hi AB,
I had a lot of resistance to trying meds, too. When my T finally talked me into it, I realized that I'd been missing a hugely helpful tool.
For example, I was also worried about losing emotions. But then I found out that turning down the volume on my emotions feels really good to me. I know there are people who complain about feeling more apathy, but I haven't noticed that at all. Instead, the lows (and sometimes even highs) have become more manageable and reasonable, and therefore feel even more real than they did before.
Also, I worried a lot that if meds helped, then that would mean that there was something intrinsically wrong with me, on my own. That I was fundamentally not OK. And also, that if I then took meds, it would mean that I wasn't being truly myself. Who wants to be a fake person?
But, oh, I wouldn't go back for the world! Meds truly changed my whole life for the better. I am sooo much more able to be the parts of myself that I love. I am more loving to the people I care about, and also to myself. Before, I was so paralyzed by anxiety, and sometimes depression, that I wasn't really living freely at all. Everything was about trying to cope with the overwhelm. Now, the overwhelm is a rare thing, which leaves me more alive *every single day* than I ever was before I tried the meds. And my therapy really took off, once I got on the right meds.
Also, if you try it and hate it, you can stop. This is easier with some meds than others, but it is possible with all of them. I had to try a couple of different ones before I got one that really helped. But, I highly recommend trying. It sounds like you're pretty debilitated right now (no judgement - I've been there myself). It's hard for me to imaging meds making things much worse for you.
For what it's worth
- P
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