Posted by 10derheart on January 2, 2011, at 2:50:35
In reply to ((((((10derheart))))))))), posted by floatingbridge on December 24, 2010, at 14:05:34
Thanks for writing and the hug. It is....weird and terrible and okay and wrong and right and hurts and is insane but on some level makes sense (for him, at least) and more...all at once.
I know that must sound "nuts." But it's true.
I just miss him and it's only bearable 'cause he's still on vacation for two more days. When I know he's back at work and maybe won't communicate any more (ALL I WANTED WAS OCCASIONALLY, YOU ***** IF YOU'D JUST TRUST ME), I will likely feel much worse.
I alternate sobbing and screaming at him inside my car/house and not giving a damn and totally blocking him from my mind. It's really not all that much fun either way.
And seeing my current "T" helps very little. She is really kind, patient, nice, smart....but this situation is so odd and foreign to her....and me.....
It stinks. Therapy shouldn't always lead to the need for more therapy for the therapy. But with me, it has.
MDD (presently in complete remission); ADD-Inattentive type; mild anxiety (not fomally dx'd)
Meds: Strattera 80 mg q day
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