Posted by catmint on January 27, 2010, at 0:33:17
I don't know why it's gotten so bad. I'm 43, committed to alternative treatments for BP2, tried every med out there, it's been a crazy ride. I'm clean and sober, no tobacco either, just a couple cups of coffee in the morning. I'm burned out on my job, am a single mother of a 17 yr. old.
I get really sad most days, and hopeless, I hate the way I look and feel, am having issues with aging. I have no friends, I tend to be really negative and cynical because that is how I cope. How do people my age deal with life? I can't imaging anyone wanting to have a relationship with me, I'm so down, I sleep too much.
I'm afraid to get back on meds again, I get really manic and self destructive.
I'm having a really bad winter.
Thanks for reading.
poster:catmint
thread:935104
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/psycho/20091212/msgs/935104.html