Posted by gibbons482 on October 2, 2009, at 16:39:54
In reply to Re: Terrified and Alone, posted by Phillipa on October 2, 2009, at 13:39:19
I ended up taking a nice long bubble bath last night which helped a little to get my mind off things. I don't have any friends I could really call so bubble bath it was. But the thoughts came back when I was trying to go to bed. I've been trying to think *why* I'm so afraid of the NP. I think I'm afraid of the NP because maybe I'm afraid of losing the connection I already have. I feel like my doctor cares and they said they did too. I'm afraid of the NP because I don't like change, and I'm afraid I won't be special anymore--even if I'm realistically not. I'm afraid she won't like me and it'll be in and out med checks, which I don't have right now. My doctor lets me ramble on about life and things during our med checks. I just don't want to be well enough to have things change. I'm hoping they'll feel I'm complicated enough to stay with the doctor. I'm been doing really well and I'm still so worried. I'm not quite sure why. Thanks for listening to this stream of conscious rambling.
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