Posted by obsidian on July 19, 2009, at 12:35:34
In reply to Re: alright now...I say 'f*ck it' (sub abuse trig) » obsidian, posted by SLS on July 19, 2009, at 7:08:32
> I am so sorry that you are having such a tough time of things. I wouldn't worry too much about picking up again. It doesn't make all of your previous work evaporate. I think it is important to understand that you don't have to start all over again. You just sort of pick up where you left off before relapsing. If this isn't really an issue for you, I apologize for doing the lecture thing. It is just that I was in a program where substance abuse was one of the conditions being treated. I learned a few things there.
I know I am going to smoke again. The thing that I am concerned about though is keeping some good habits up. I found a few reasons to smoke and I went with it. Whether or not it becomes my the focus of my life remains to be seen.
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> > sometimes I write...my thoughts come more easily
> > sometimes I just sit outside
> > I can't handle anything too complicated...I get too philosophical
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> Whenever I have needed to write something as a catharsis, I have written very fast and non-stop. It doesn't have to make sense and can be a single run-on sentence if you wish. It is better to write about what you are feeling and try not to intellectualize too much. For some people, intellectualizing is a defense mechanism to prevent painful or shameful thoughts and feelings from emerging.I keep meaning to keep up a journal.
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> In any event, you are probably doing what is right for you by detaching somewhat from the social environment at work, at least for now. You are being what you feel. Hopefully, you will be able to achieve a balance where you can communicate with your coworkers in a cordial manner while still maintaining the boundaries that serve you best.Again I have to find a way both to detach and do my job at the same time. It is a challenge.
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> Good luck.
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> One day at a time, right?thanks Scott, I know I will be ok, eventually
-sid
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