Posted by rskontos on April 19, 2009, at 16:46:20
In reply to Re: Thank You. I'm really sad about this. » rskontos, posted by Cecilia on April 12, 2009, at 19:28:47
>>RSK, your T won't LET you quit? That's the scariest thing I've ever heard. Whose life is it anyway? I had a T like Kenya's who gave up on me after 7 years. telling me she dreaded our sessions, and the pain was excruciating, but in retrospect that's better, in my opinion, than a T like yours who feels he has the right to totally control your life. Cecilia>>>
No Cecilia, it isn't like that. I am sorry I convened that. What I meant is he knows that despite my reluctance to trust him, due to childhood issues, I need therapy. I tend to keep waiting on the other shoe to drop and discover he is not who I think he is. Just someone wanting to hurt me like all the members of my family have. He knows how fragile I am despite my outward display of confidence and strength.
He is a good therapist. He will turn me loose when I am ready. I know this. He just did not want me to quit when I was just getting started because I was afraid. Being afraid and anxious is a state I know so well that I first resisted his efforts.
For right now, he is the only person that truly knows and understands what an effort life is everyday for me. IRL. I don 't share this with my family.
rsk
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