Posted by SLS on April 4, 2009, at 8:38:28
In reply to Re: Is this as good as it gets?, posted by Sigismund on April 3, 2009, at 23:02:39
I can't help but to cry at the notion that I should finally "accept" my illness and live in the moment without acknowledging why my moments are so frustrating, painful, and unrewarding. One of the things I most hate about this illness is that it separates me from the people around me. It separates me from human experience. I can't see going the rest of my life without continuing to want more connectedness. I will always miss the fullness and brightness of the experience I had when I was in remission for several months.
All I know is that, for now, it is against my nature to accept depression and resolve to make it a lifestyle. This might be a wast of time and energy. However, I cannot just "let it go". Maybe I can make some adjustments. I don't know.
I am not in a good place right now. I am filled with anger, sadness, and fear.
- Scott
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