Posted by deerock on February 17, 2009, at 21:49:45
im running into this issue with my therapist. i told her at the very beginning that i was going to AA to help with my pot smoking and OA to deal with my eating. both of these programs help me. when i attend either one, i either eat better or stay clean. and i told her that my goal in therapy is to learn to regulate myself without needing these programs. today, she told me that it was quite possible i would need these programs to be able to regulate myself and i might end up going to them the remainder of my life. this royally upset me and pissed me off.
she claims that my reasons for not wanting to go to the programs involve a fear of people. its not that i dont like the programs, i do, i like socializing but the program itself has a conceptual foundation of crap. god, 12 steps, etc. so she thinks that i dont like it because i dont trust people in my life because getting close to people makes me scared. i dont know if thats true. bottom line though, im really pissed that she is now telling me that she thinks i will need these fellowships forever when my original motivator in seeking therapy was to find ways to regulate myself and NOT need these groups. it may be true that im scared of people but the fact remains that i do not want to rely on these groups.
i dont know if this makes any sense and i know its hard to comment because youre not in the mix...but i am curious if you have any thoughts on this. and of course, i will continue to talk to her about this.
thanks for reading.
poster:deerock
thread:880830
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/psycho/20090214/msgs/880830.html