Posted by happyflower on November 1, 2008, at 9:56:15
Last weeks therapy session did affect me to the core in many ways. Some I have have written about but the biggest is, YES I was abused, and YES it has had a negative effect on my life as an adult. For some reason I still want to continue to believe I was invincible to my abusive childhood. Because if I acknowledge the truth, than that makes me a damaged person.
I am damaged and that when I see the prove that i didn't escape it, it hurts like hell. It makes me so sad.
I guess it is a process I need to go through to heal, so I am on the right track. I know it doesn't have to be my future, I can change that and make it even better than if I didn't have therapy to help.
My T gave me a book to read about boundaries. But there is so much more to the book, it talks about how abusive pasts effect how we relate in relationship in adulthood. It was like reading my diary or something but it also brought my attention to things I didn't notice. Here is a link to it, I have an older issue though. But the book is one of the best I have ever read about how an abusive past effects you.
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