Posted by happee_place on June 27, 2008, at 1:04:21
In reply to Re: **Freaking Terrified**, posted by sassyfrancesca on June 19, 2008, at 15:36:33
thankyou so much for caring. I really do want to go to therapy but im scared. I used to be so open to this idea and was so sick of the one that made everything happen ya know. So i put the ball in my husbands court and he did NOTHING with it so now after soooo long of waiting for it, waiting for him to even say babe i have an idea lets....and still NOTHING i think i finally learned to build a wall. And now when i think of therapy theres something in me that says **CK IT.
And now there is so much sh*t i have swept under the carpet i dont want to look anymore it seems like too much effort and especially because if i do look and then open up all these feelings again and i get NOTHING again it will be like pouring salt on a opened (reopened) wound. I know i need to do something but this is where im stuck.
Dave thank you im really glad you are posting here. I think i recognize you from some very sad posts here and if its you im so glad you are here with us and posting. Thank you for your kind words. I do love my sweet babies so much. they mean the world to me.
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