Posted by llurpsienoodle on April 27, 2008, at 16:24:37
In reply to Re: ((((((((llurpsie))))))))))))), posted by Phillipa on April 27, 2008, at 14:26:13
thank you guys,
I had too many emotions yesterday, and I couldn't sleep because I kept seeing his little body and wondering how someone could have hit him and not stopped. I kept on seeing the images. and then going to bed, and he wasn't there to snuggle with me (he always snuggles with me).Well, I had to take a zyprexa which is basically like an elephant dart, in my experience. and a klonopin, and a sonata. finally after 2 hours of tossing and turning, trying to watch TV, trying to read, etc. I must have fallen asleep.
I know this is horrible, but we shopped for kittens today. We put down a deposit on a ragdoll kitten. I want my next cat to be docile and not an outdoor kitty. no more outdoors for my kitty. maybe on the deck, that's fine, but no further.
I will never forget my little kitty though. he had the cutest kitty meow, kind of squeaky, like a kitten. he was very affectionate, and had a curious, naughty streak in him too. he was very fun, and very much a part of my family.
I decided not to call T, unless I'm feeling self-destructive. So far my self-destructive instincts have led me to eat an ice cream sundae and 2 boston kreme donuts. and a piece of pizza for breakfast. i was in bed until 4pm, at which point we went on a junkfood binge.
comfort food.
I keep on expecting to hear his jingle bell, signalling that he's coming home... :'(
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