Posted by llurpsienoodle on April 7, 2008, at 9:27:13
In reply to Re: feeling fragile *triggers » llurpsienoodle, posted by Dinah on April 7, 2008, at 9:07:48
> Are you being totally honest with your therapist about how bad you're feeling? Or are you putting up a brave show?
yes, well-- T says he can tell in my eyes that I'm doing well/not. I think my eyes don't lie, at least not today. I look like hell!
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> A bit of tweaking is an odd thing for a therapist to say. Or does he prescribe your meds as well? Meds tweaking sounds like something they'd say, and it doesn't mean they think you're necessarily doing ok. It might mean more that he thinks they should give this lot of medications a try for a while longer.no, he's just a T. I know more about psychopharm than he does. it IS an odd thing for a T to say. That's why I noticed it.
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> Hearing more bad news when you're already feeling bad is always difficult.
>yeah. I have known for some time that my friend was one step away from crisis. I've tried to make it easier for her to seek help. I know she had a rough childhood and that her dad is coming to visit soon, but this rape was really surprising and shocking. I don't know how to process.
> But maybe it's wise to stay away from things that might be triggering, at least for a while?
probably. I shouldn't be looking through the archives trying to find upsetting incidents. I guess
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> With headaches, I try to lie flat in a darkened room and consciously relax all the muscles of my face and neck and shoulders. To check for my characteristic head tilt. When I'm feeling upset, my head tilt exaggerates to where it seems my ear is on my shoulder, and my muscles get very tense. To make sure I'm not tightening my eyes or grinding my teeth. And to practice pain blocking. This is easier to do with areas further away from my head than my head, but it works sometimes.
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> I picture the pain impulses running to my brain, and place a wall between the impulses and my brain, so that the pain isn't able to get to the place where the impulses will be transmitted to my awareness. My son prefers using a band of rubber to a wall, so that the pain impulses are sent back. When it's my head that's hurting, I also visualize calming those neurons to keep them from firing.
>that sounds good. I was able to relax the head muscles, which brought some relief. Found that the actual "ache" is in the left back part of my neck. it's getting better since I took naproxen about an hour ago. I no longer feel like I will vomit from the pain. that's something...\
> And then of course there's medication. I take Frova.
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> Llurpsie, this is absolutely none of my business, and I know nothing whatsoever about drugs other than my own experiences, so take it with a grain of salt. But Wellbutrin, while it made me feel better in some ways, also set up a low level agitation that made my suicidal and self injury thoughts a lot worse.Ive been posting a bit on the /medication/ board lately. The wellbutrin is prob helping my anxiety, which is quite amazing, given that my previous trial on the drug led to staying up for 84 hours straight.
Re. suicidal thoughts and such. They were so bad about 5 days into starting wellbutrin that I thought I would take an overdose of 3 sedating meds to fall asleep and make it go away. hence llurpsie in the hospital. Believe it or not, most of the suicidal ideation is gone. Except when I'm triggered.
>That's just me. I tend more to anxiety than depression and I'm supersensitive to meds. But I was just wondering if there was any correlation between beginning to take Wellbutrin and feeling really bad.
Thank you for your input Dinah. the pain relief stuff sounds good.
-Ll
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