Posted by Dinah on March 27, 2008, at 10:38:09
I have been trying to work at the office rather than at home, because I'd like to work more standard hours and come home and forget about work, and I realize that distractions at home cause me to stretch out my work day. My therapist is firmly behind this plan. He never has thought it a good idea to work at home.
But I get so very tired at work. I come home so exhausted that I feel sick.
I know it's only been a couple of weeks, and I'd like to give it at least a month. And I keep hoping that I'll relax at work, since I know a lot of the tiredness comes from my being tense at work.
I used to work at the office all the time when Daddy was there, and even when he wasn't literally there but called me a lot when he became wheelchair-bound. It must be possible.
I hate to bring this up today at session or let my therapist know exactly how bad I feel. He's going away for a long weekend, and I'm afraid if I say something he'll perceive it as my decompensating before his absence (or after, if I wait to tell him Tuesday). And there's nothing really he can do anyway.
I'm getting all those not so good thoughts again. But I'm used to them, I guess, and won't act on them. They're a bit unpleasant though. I can mostly control them when I'm awake. But I'm often not very awake because I'm so darn sleepy.
It's not unusual for me to feel sick when I'm this tired, although since I'm getting plenty of sleep I'm not sure why I feel tired enough to feel sick.
poster:Dinah
thread:820130
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