Posted by Angela2 on February 18, 2008, at 18:30:14
I deal with anxiety and worry everyday of my life. I am working on changing this and kudos to Kath, have decided to write about the progress I make here on PB. I hope you all enjoy reading it.
It has sort of turned into agoraphobia because I have a comfort zone as to where I feel safe going and where I do not. My house is the safest I feel. But by staying close to home all the time, I have given up having friends, a job, and even just volunteering at local organizations.
Here is a letter I wrote to the worry and anxiety I experience. It was very therapeutic for me to write:
Dear Anxiety, Avoidance, and Negative irrational thinking,
I do not want to have a relationship with you anymore. I stop for you, I pay attention to you. But you dont pay attention to me and my needs. You keep me away from the people and things that I love. I dont want you to keep dragging me down. You promise me safety. But you dont bring me happiness. And the safety you promise me is just an illusion. So Good Bye.
It was the most honest I have ever been with myself about what I experience. And I feel good about that.
OK, so today I went to the craft store to buy yarn. I was nervous and catastrophizing that I might faint or something, which didn't help (note-catastrophizing doesn't help..) But I did it and I feel good about it.
Tomorrow I am going to go to 2 places, one close by, another a little farther.