Posted by B2chica on January 8, 2008, at 8:24:58
ok, i'm gonna try babble again. ohhhhhhhhhhhhh did i miss my friends!!!!!
i had a nice break. (some cr@p days) but mostly i ignored everything and was able to pretend i had a different life. lived only in present...as if NO past. it was good. i needed that.
i even skipped a week of T. that really allowed me to be in lala land. :)
but went back yesterday...things were building. it was hard...EVERYONE wanted to talk and the noise in my head was crazy. but at least i understand what that noise is now. and i went in to T as teen and i was switching like a light switch! went from teen to me to littleone, to me, to 1950's lady, to teen, to me to littleone where i stayed and Finally ended up most of the session. then she just BLABBED abuse stuff. SOOOOOOO Hard. i was not ready for that. i didn't expect that. so wasnt prepared.its just so weird how quickly i switch these days. of course i think its just that i'm recognizing it, not so much that it's any different. but i'm recognizing it as my DD rather than emotional lability.(sp?)
anyway. was exhausted. and when i went home i could barely care for IRL little one, so DH was good and cared mostly. then when she took a nap...i did too. 2 Wonderful hours.
****THE WEIRD THING WAS, when i came home. from session. i don't think i was "myself" yet. cuz my little girl wouldn't really come to me. she fussed in my arms and when i tried to feed her a bottle she cried and kept squiggling out of my arms. then when DH came to feed her she ate bottle right away??
BUT after my nap, i felt better (like myself). and little girl lit up when she saw me. really happy. and we played and she ate from me like normal. it was a weird experience...
anyone else with DD or DID experience this with their IRL kids??ok...sorry been gone sooo long. i'm gonna try to be back and try to be helpful.
love you all.
b2c.
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