Posted by star008 on December 31, 2007, at 9:08:28
Why is it that we have to be so dependent on out T's for support..Why do we have to miss them. feels like an addiction sometimes.. We can't we just go about life and do whatever it is that everyone else does.??
sometimes i feel so needy and I hate it.. I hate neediness part of me that has to see him to get a reality check..What does he have that I don't have??what is it that "normal" people have that I don't have.. I think about him retiring someday and then i will never see him again and it will be like he died and I will have to accept it that way and know that I am not part of anythng.. I am just a client to be left behind eventually.. and i know it will hurt.. I have seen this guy for over ten years.
why do I have to be so needy? i feel needy sometimes when i go there and it embarrasses me that i need the help..That i just don't have it together..
And they have their own lives, families, houses, etc..And they go on vacations and leave for this or that and I accpt it and wait it out till he gets back.. that just doesn't feel good to me..And sometimes I miss him alot and that bothers me too..
I leave him and come back to my dumpy little house with my three dogs and that is all there is for me..
poster:star008
thread:803407
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