Posted by Dinah on December 3, 2007, at 17:15:35
In reply to Re: I don't think I'm as well as I thought » Dinah, posted by Daisym on December 2, 2007, at 0:48:16
I hadn't thought of it in those terms, but you're right of course. I've been in such a series of adrenaline rushes and stresses since late summer. It makes sense that I'd protect myself with a dissociative haze. Try to give myself a chance to recover.
Of course, that causes it's own problems and likely leads to future adrenaline rushes.
Christmas. I think I might actually enjoy it this year. I need to do some Christmas shopping. It will likely be a very quiet Christmas except for having my mother over for a few hours. I like quiet Christmases I think.
I have so much trouble remembering things that aren't current. Feeling disconnected with my therapist makes me feel like I'll always feel that way. Even though I was able to cry for the first time in his office Friday, I still am having trouble maintaining warm positive feelings toward him. On the other hand, I bothered him over the weekend for no good reason really, just to bring him up to date and apologize for my poor temper. And he was really very nice about it. Reassuring me that being angry with the world was an appropriate way to feel, and not minding at all being called. And since I'd turned down an offered hug with very poor grace, I think that was darn nice of him.
Have you ever experienced that a hug makes you fall apart rather than strengthens or comforts you? That happened at my father's funeral, and now I'm a bit afraid to hug while I'm upset.
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