Posted by annierose on November 18, 2007, at 7:52:56
In reply to Re: Sorting out my session today --long reply » annierose, posted by gardenergirl on November 17, 2007, at 0:02:15
My heart sank when I read that you are clinically depressed again. What prompted the med change? Have you asked your p-doc about getting off the Claritin and swiching to Zyrtec? That's a simple change and for me --- A HUGE DIFFERENCE!! Claritin had me sinking into the black cloud deeper with each passing day. My allergy doctor said that depression was a side effect for maybe 3% of people ... but someone has be to the 3%. (I can't remember the actual percentage).
I'm finding out there are so many reasons for grief. It's just not about the dead. And grieving about things living are prehaps the most difficult because a small part of us still holds hope and wishes things could/would change.
Thank you for taking the time to explain some psych stuff to me. I was serious when I said that. I wasn't teasing you.
My therapist and I went over more of this "suff" on Friday. We both agreed that this is the crux for my reasons to being there. So we are chipping away at the pieces session by session. In a nutshell what she is trying to say (45 minutes into a sentence or two) - "I have continually told you that I care, that you matter, that I like you. But it only comforts you for a moment or two. The conflict is within your psyche. The push and pull of believing that you are likable for who you are right now vs the old messages that get played in your head from your mother."
There is a lot of STUFF in there and more that needs sorting. As I often say, therapy sucks! And it's hard for me because there is that little girl that says, "Don't trust her for a second!"
I hope you find the right combination of meds and activity to lift you out of the darkness. AND get some time under your lamp (for light) ... you need light and it's so dark so early now.
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