Posted by rskontos on October 18, 2007, at 11:56:04
In reply to Re: Trying to go easy » rskontos, posted by B2chica on October 18, 2007, at 8:06:59
yeah crappy call, crappy father. I am just trying and so far it is working I feel better today. I think T might set me off but I will deal with it too. I want to deal with it. Well not really but I think if I try this maybe I will be better able to. When I have a negative thought I am trying to counter with a positive one. It is part of my being kind to myself. I found a book, a cleaning book that deals with a cleaning schedule that sets up how you should clean your house and it made me realize I am being obessive. So I plan to read it each day until I get that I am being obessive. I am trying to take it one day. Dont get me wrong this is a fight with myself but I am just as determined as part is determine I will lose. Sounds crazy huh.
Yeah I hate holidays too. At least alone my little family does ok. with family well........ my father lives in lala land. He is in denial that he did anything or that is the problem he didn't protect us. Well then again he didn't want us so why should he do anything. Feed us to the wolves. And now everything is okeydokey according to him. The funny thing is I think he thinks he can say he loves us and all the other just disappears. What he doesn't realize is I feel little to nothing for him. I mean I know I should love him but I separated from him a long time ago and nothing since then has change for me. But he is clueless.
I always have my bedroom and my bed my safety net. I will run when I have too. I can plead headache and they will leave me alone. Thanks for the support. and the hug!!!!!!! We will get through this holiday season together!!!rk
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