Posted by RealMe on September 25, 2007, at 23:13:32
In reply to RE: How could I change so quickly » RealMe, posted by JoniS on September 24, 2007, at 22:39:06
And $245 is for 45 minutes; My last T was $215 for 45 minutes. My current T is supposed to be good, and I think he is.
Today with therapy, I talked about stuff going on in my life and some of the crap with my congregation. I talked about how I had visual-spatial disorientation trying to find where I was going to my niece's baby shower. Then I said something about the past stuff and how I don't want to get into that stuff, and I told him the carpet has cute little animals and trees, etc. now and not what I saw before when I was talking about abuse. He started laughing and said I was "cute" in my resistance. AGGGHHH! Then he said something about the sense I seem to have of being all alone and lonely not matter what or who I am involved with. He said I seem that way with my memories too, and I agreed that I think back now and recall how sad and lonely I felt. I told him that the last time I talked about the abuse stuff he said nothing, and he asked me did I not feel connected to him. He asked was I feeling alone agin in talking about it, and I said I did not feel connected to him when I talked about it, and yes I felt alone. I said I don't know that there is anything in particular I want him to say, and he said to me that it seems I need for him to say something so I don't feel so alone, and I said yes. And he said more than once he was glad I told him this because it is important that I feel a connection with him when I talk about the abuse stuff. Then damn it all, I started crying, and I just hate it when I do that. Sorry. I wasn't going to say anything about today. I just really hurt and feel sad. I had this damn therapy.
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