Posted by muffled on September 24, 2007, at 10:18:23
In reply to Re: Wondering if I was SA as a child ** CSA trigge » Happyflower3, posted by arora on September 24, 2007, at 7:38:12
> I don't know- memory is a funny thing... I have big gaps in my childhood memories, (other than feeling sad, and a vague sense of unease) so I can't really say. I have some of the 'symptoms' as well, which freaks me out too.
**Thats like me. I can't remember being a kid, but if I try I get very anxious and sad.
> I think that my family was just dysfunctional- trying to look like the all-round normal family but covering up a lot of unhappiness. Appearances and what other people thought was the most important thing.**Yeah. I think thats not so uncommmon :-(
> Maybe we (or our parents) all become so conditioned into covering things up so that they can fit in with the norm, that they can't see what they're hiding might not have even been a big deal as far as others are concerned... but these little hidden things fester away until they really scr*w their children up.
*I would show up to the dinner table stone drunk(and leave once I realized I wasn't going to be even moderately straight...) In was only in Gr 7 or so. This happened more than once. My parents never knew....????
My ma found drugs in my room, put them on my dads desk for him to see when he got home. I saw them first, took them back......nothing was ever said...........
Its awonder isn't it?
> (sigh) that's what I hope, anyway.Yeah...I hope too :-(
F*cking SOB I HOPE SO MUCH.
Thats why I scared to go 'there', to look at all the weird inexplicable sh*t in my head :-(
Maybe there's nothing.
God I hope so :-(
I honestly hope I will never know. Its better that way.
I just got to stop messing up :-(
Take care,
M
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