Posted by anneofkana on September 12, 2007, at 6:51:56
In reply to Re: wow, posted by Wittgenstein on September 12, 2007, at 3:48:29
No, I am not suicidal. I do take an occasional valuium or ativan when the anxiety gets bad.
The desire to contact him is almost overwhleming. I know that what he did was wrong and yet, my heart is broken and I want/need him to valadate me in some way. Stinking thinking.
DH is very understanding because of the therapeutic relationship I had with him that I was vulnerable. Dam_ him!!!
Has anyone been through this?
The therapists out of state told me that as part of my own healing I need to report it. I am having a hard time with it. I am not rushing off to do anything. I need to get out of this "fog" that I am in. FOG!! I can't see the forrest for the trees and I am putting entirely too much energy into all of this. I want freedom. I am trying to work a 12 step program just like I would if it were a drug, which for me it has been. I get my "fix" from seeing him/talking to him/having sex with him, as disgusting as it sounds.
Present T is good and helps me stay focused. He has also helped DH a lot.
I would just like to know if anyone has been through this and how long it took to get free of it. There is a powerful bond between T and client. I would never have opened myself up and become so vulnerable with another man. I spilled my guts to him, if you know what I mean.
Thanks
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