Posted by RealMe on September 6, 2007, at 17:29:19
In reply to Something about the day after therapy...., posted by JoniS on September 6, 2007, at 12:14:19
Have you ever felt really special to anyone? I have not felt that way about my current therapist, being really special to him or the most special of his patients, but I did feel that way when I was at Menninger's re my doctor. I was so jealous of his other patients. But he was always there for me no matter what and patient and understanding. I still cry that he died in August 2004 and even though I had not really seen him in 10 years. I did get to the point where I did not feel that way anymore, mostly because I could see I was special to him, maybe not more so than anyone else he saw, but I was special. It was a very proud day for me when I grad'd from the postdoc program and won the writing award at graduation over all the grad's including the residents, etc. My therapist was up on stage and was just beaming. I almost started to cry.
So, now I know all the unresolved crap came up after he died, and I know I am special to my therapist but no more so than other patients and certainly not as special to him as his wife, for example. I would not want to be. Think of how that would feel if your therapist said to you that you are more special to him than his wife. If mine said that, I would run as fast as I could and as far away as I could get as that would not be right. I don't want THAT.
Longwinded me, but have you ever felt truely special to anyone before? I know I had not.
RealMe
(OzLand) --- Who can't spell for sh*t since ECT and continues to have the vocab of someone um maybe now in high school, and not so much junior high. What do you think? Is my brain coming back??? Short term memory is pretty much okay now, but long term memory is still full of holes. I just try not to dwell on it, or I am reduced to tears all over again.
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