Posted by Happyflower 1 :-) on August 24, 2007, at 21:16:45
This new T of mine, saw I had emotions on the surface and instead of making me laugh or distract me, like my old T did, he allowed me to FEEL them. But before doing the EMDR, he just said stuff that made me cry, for example, I want you to hear the words your T told you, I want you to feel the dager pierce through your heart. Let the hurt come out to the surface. I am like holey sh*t, I COULDN"T hold it in and I am so good at that too. This was only the 2nd visit too.
But one thing I feel like it is okay to cry in front of him because he is "warm and fuzzy". Sounds weird, but he ozzes warmth, or maybe it is me ozzy transference. LOL But I feel safe and to let myself be so vunerable with him so soon has me amazed really. How did he get through the layers of self protection so fast with me?
Was it because the hurt I was feeling was "so there" at the moment, and his instincts were that I needed to let it go. I guess I am a bit surprised by myself and by my new T and what happened. How did he know?
I am so overwhelmed with being so exhausted, but yet I felt lighter going in to see my old T today. I felt a lot of that pain got released the day before. My face was actually chapped and raw from crying the day before, but today I felt strong to face my old T.
How did my new T know?
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