Posted by LlurpsieNoodle on July 27, 2007, at 15:49:16
In reply to Re: Lurpsie? update » LlurpsieNoodle, posted by Phillipa on July 27, 2007, at 12:17:31
Talked about husband's reaction. T suggested that we bring him in for a few sessions. (kicking and screaming, I'm sure)
Then to my lack of feelings
then to cutting. i told him the how what where why. he was good about it. not judgemental. no stupid puppydog pity eyes either. I can't stand it when people do that.
but... I dissociated major time. started staring at this one spot on the carpet and drifted away. and pulled myself back again and couldn't remember what we were talking about...
then I told this story about this horrible thing that happened to me once, and i was totally like a robot saying it. and drifted off too. looking down at myself in the office. heard myself saying it. but not feeling it at all.
told t i was not really feeling anything right now. that i was off in la la land.
he said the nicest thing "It's okay if you couldn't feel it, because I could"
sigh... at least one of us in the room has emotions.
-Ll
exhausted.
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