Posted by peddidle on May 4, 2007, at 12:20:26
In reply to jealousy and meaninglessness, posted by gazo on May 4, 2007, at 10:58:58
I am sorry you don't feel that connection with your T. Remember, though, that you have only met with him 6 times. I don't know about anyone else, but it took a lot longer than that before I felt the deep connection that I have with my T. I had the same strong feelings you are having now, at that time, as well. I'm sorry, I don't know how to explain them or how to make them better, except to say that I know how it feels. Don't give up. You say you like your T, and that he is a nice person. That's pretty much how I would have described my T after 6 sessions. You may still get that special relationship with your T, but it takes a long, long time.
I could be wrong, but based on what you've written, I think a lot of the feelings and thoughts you are having right now are related to your depression. I know that we would all miss you if you were gone, and, no, it wouldn't take us long to notice.
This is probably a stupid suggestion (I'm just full of bad advice today), but how would you feel about printing out your post for your T to read. You can edit out the parts that make you feel uncomfortable, like the part about you wanting a voicemail from him. I would love to have a message like that from my T, but I would be terrified to ask for one. You don't even have to tell him it's a babble post, you can just say you wanted him to understand some stuff, and you thought it would be easier to write it down. You can even ask him to read it when you aren't there. It might be helpful for him to know how you are feeling in general, not necessarily about him specifically.
If it makes you feel any better, yes, I have an amazing T, and I wouldn't trade her for anything in the world, but I only get to see her during the school year. My last appointment is on Monday, and then, I suppose I could email her once in a while, but I won't see her again until late August/early September.
I hope you feel better. Take care.
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