Posted by muffled on May 3, 2007, at 15:51:00
In reply to is this weird?, posted by gazo on May 2, 2007, at 14:50:59
> is it weird to keep re-playing the voicemail he left? i mean, isn't that obssessive or something? He isn't magic, why would i be so into hearing his voice? i feel freakish but there is something very rewarding about doing it.
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>Oh MAN!!! Gazo, if its weird, so am I!!!
I think like the others said. Its like a connection to our T. We hear the voice, we are reminded they DO exist. It calms us.
Its a way for us to connect with our T, but not be intrusive, as so many of us worry about.
There have been times where I been so distressed, that I've literally listened REPEATEDLY to the same short message. Like maybe 10x!!In a row!!! Dunno, wasn't counting. Just the voice made me feel safe I guess. The words didn't matter.
So to me its not about stalking, it about being soothed in a way that works for me, and that my T proly don't mind. I have somewhat mentioned it in passing in my faxes.
That being said....I am trying to get up the nerve to ask my T to leave me a message thats calming? or something, cuz we in a weird place in T. Arrgh, I can tell my T to 'shove it', but I can't ask for something nice???!!! I am such a nut.
Sigh, the joys of T.
You take care Gazo,
Muffled
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