Posted by madeline on March 30, 2007, at 14:50:33
In reply to unglued ****self harm TRIGGER****, posted by gazo on March 30, 2007, at 7:58:34
"i am swimming in a sea and i don't understand how i feel. i couldn't name it if i tried. writing it down isn't even possible.. cuz i can't sort it out enough."
It sounds to me like you've got a potent combo of grief and fear going on. Don't you think that both are completely normal in your circumstance?
In fact, I would be worried if you weren't sad and afraid.
When I first started with a new therapist, I was scared to death, in fact for large portions of my life I have been scared to death. And grief? Of course you're sad, you've experienced a tremendous loss.
It's okay gazo it's really really okay to feel what you feel. It's not going to overwhelm you and you are not going to drown in it. They are emotions that you have to very real circumstances in your life. Just simply emotions that you can tolerate.
Think of all those years that you did not SI. Think of how strong you are to have stopped that - on your own - with no one to help. Really think about that. A person that can do that, in my mind, can do anything.
Including allowing themselves to feel emotions that are completely normal at the time.
It's okay to be afraid and it is okay to be sad.
You can get through this, things will get better.
Thank you for sharing your history with us, and, when you're ready, share it with those that can help more.
I think you are amazing
Maddie
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