Posted by Iwillsurvive on March 25, 2007, at 14:19:13
In reply to Re: Why isn't this me? (long) *suicide trigger* » peddidle, posted by Dinah on March 24, 2007, at 20:21:06
Geeze. I never realized it, I woulda said I don't have suicidal ideation, but I guess I do. Cuz yes, there are times where it just comes upon me, and I just wish I didn't exist. I wished I was dead I guess. Other day I saw a bad pic of someone w/their head blown off (why I was searching that????) but anyways, I thot to myself, well, thats not *so* bad....
Damn, I had no idea.
But for me its not often, mebbe 2-3x/month?? I don't really know as I just realized it.
But the point of my post, is that it truly doesn't bother me (well its sorta bothering me now, that I do it, but not so much,more it bothers me that I know so little of myself). I have these thots, they not so nice, but they pass quickly, and like I say, I obvo wasn't even really noticing them. So mebbe its just the way some of us are made? Mebbe its no big deal? Cuz I truly won't act on it, even tho at the time it feels so real.
Thats my thots.
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