Posted by Iwillsurvive on March 11, 2007, at 11:07:34
In reply to flashbacks,how to share in T? *might trigger*, posted by frida on March 11, 2007, at 1:33:01
> Hi!
> I just thought I'd ask for some feedback.
> I've been seeing my T for around 7 years now and it took me that long to trust and to share more freely, even now I have trouble talking. In the past I couldn't say a word...now I can, but I do from a distance..I have trouble sharing emotions and then I fall apart when I leave. I write to her and she knows, and she's been really wonderful to me, she reassures me I'm safe, she is there for me always.**:-) She sounds like my T.
> I am working through abuse issues..and I still can't share feelings about it..only when I am at home and it all comes to me and I feel desperate I call crying..and while I'm there, I am moved lots of times by what she says about it.
> Well, what I wanted to ask those of you who've been through it...is the following:
>
> Lately I've been experiencing flashbacks at home and it is so painful to go through them alone. My T has said that she would like me to be able to share the hard stuff with her so I am not alone.
> Sometimes I've experienced flashbacks and the bad stuff when I'm with her...or when I am about to enter. But I don't tell her and I hold back and I don't say a word.
> then I leave and it makes me cry.
>
> What do you do if you experience a flashback or sth similar when you are with your T? Do you tell?
> What is your T's reaction?**Sorry, I just get triggers and dissociate.
I wonder if you dissociate?
>
> I don't even know how I'd say it. She asks me a lot of times how I'm feeling but I take a deep breath and say ok and I can't find the way to stop and tell her. Sometimes she's talking about something and I'm experiencing this and I can't tell her.*yeah, my T asks, and I awlays say fine. Sometimes she'll try and push it a bit, but I just sort of shrivell up into myself, literally and figuratively.
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> Would you mind sharing if you have told your T and what happened?
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> I just don't know why i can't say it and maybe it's not important to say but it is painful to me to leave without telling.*My thot was mebbe you could have a simple hand signal that you have both agreed upon in advance. Then you don't have to SAY, you just have to flap your hand. Then mebbe your T can try and see if she can help you to say.
Just my thots. I'm sorry you were hurt.
>
> Thanks,
> Frida
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