Posted by mair on February 23, 2007, at 22:45:15
In reply to useless rambling... long.. *triggers*, posted by wishingstar on February 23, 2007, at 21:32:45
I wish I had some pearls of wisdom. I've been in this awful place before where I can't stop thinking about suicide, and yet I know I'm not at risk. And I'd say to myself that I really should hurt myself if I'm just going to think about it so much. Fortunately, if you can ride these waves for awhile, they do peter out. It just makes life very unpleasant in the meantime.
I'm sorry you're having so much trouble getting together with your T.
I can hold out a couple of glimmers of hope. As you noted, you really are pretty close to coming up with a more set schedule. And - try not to give up on the meds solutions. I've been thought to be pretty treatment resistant for years (my T calls me a partial responder). But on several occasions when I thought that there really was nothing anyone could do for me, I've been surprised to discover that some fairly small adjustments made a big difference, at least temporarily. Is it at all possible that some of your depression may actually be exacerbated by the meds you're taking, or by the dosage and frequency? And while I equate trying new meds with a form of modern day torture, maybe another change is in order.
Please keep posting - early and often.
mair
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