Posted by wishingstar on February 3, 2007, at 18:24:20
In reply to Hospitalization, posted by toojane on February 3, 2007, at 11:10:28
Once, but only very briefly. About 48 hours. It was essentially involuntary, since they told me theyd force it if I didnt agree to sign myself in. I did not want to be there. I'd gone to the hospital with the goal of getting admitted (for the second time) to the day program.
I didnt really like it, although I was there such a short time, I guess it's hard to say. I like to be actively involved in my treatment, and I do know a good deal about this field, but none of the nurses seemed to take me seriously in the least. I felt like they responded to whatever I said as if I was 5 years old... "ok sweetie, sure, rightttt". I was there for depression and not in ANY way confused, etc. It felt a little partionizing.
The groups were a giant waste of my time. They were aimed at a fairly low-fuctioning crowd, people who cannot express themselves well. I'm neither of those things, and all I really wanted was someone to talk to, not to play their stupid little games. Almost all our time was spend sitting around doing nothing, and it really just gave me time to obesess about how badly I felt. Although there were some provisions to keep us safe (taking belts away, etc) other things were simply crazy - for instance, there were probably half a dozen TV cords throughout the unit, attached to TVs but not secured easily within reach. If I really wanted to hurt myself, I think I'd go for a TV cord before I went for my dental floss or chap stick, both which they took away. Again, felt a little ridiculous.
Luckily, I'd been in the day program once before and after enough complaining, they had the director of that program come over and talk with me. He completely agreed with me that it wasnt a good environment for me, and got them to release me the very next morning... hence the short stay... into his program the following week.
Even with what experience, I've actually been talking to my T about readmitting myself somewhere (not there) for a few days. I think it can be helpful in keeping you safe, but you have to be able to stomach a lot of things and advocate for yourself to some degree, which is hard when you're feeling that bad.
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