Posted by zenhussy on January 22, 2007, at 11:26:34
In reply to when therapy hits more than bumps...., posted by zenhussy on December 23, 2006, at 14:57:12
downright scary. today's appt will be first after surgery and that will be somewhat of a litmus test.
so afraid to call. so afraid to post much here. so freakin' afraid. years of therapy feeling like they're hanging by a thin thread that's unraveling as this is being typed......
have invested much into this relationship. am so fortunate to have had the years of therapy with a T as diverse in their approach as this one. to have made more progress, more forward movement with this particular T than all the others combined says a lot given the circumstances of our life.
the mind swirls with unsavoury thoughts and when aware of the physical body the awareness is pain, tension and all over aches. no wonder there isn't much time spent in here! who'd want this?
but that's JUST IT....learning to be in the misery long enough to work one's way out.....right? learning how to last through the unpleasant feelings until more tolerable feelings surface....until the urges subside.....until the need passes.....until one gets strong enough to handle most bumps w/o meltdown, w/o temper tantrums, w/o reverting to less than mature ways of coping, w/o all the strum and drang....
wish it were easier but if so then where would the growth take place? where would the character building come in? ;)
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