Posted by LadyBug on December 21, 2006, at 1:57:44
In reply to i miss my T, posted by sunnydays on December 20, 2006, at 20:54:04
I can feel how much you miss him. I wish you could have him with you to tuck you in and hug you when you have a bad dream. Do you get to see him before or between the Holiday's? I chose to see my T 2 times this week, yesterday and tomorrow. It's because she is taking all of next week off and the other reason is the last 2 times I've left her office I've been so down, sad and in tears. I needed to tell her that and try and talk about why before it's 2 weeks till I see her again.
I want to go spend Christmas with my T also. I would love to be one of her kids, even if they are all grown. I'd love to be at her house sitting in front of the fireplace, drinking hot chocolate, visiting and feeling connected. We'd be in our Christmas jammies of course, she could buy them. Flannel pajama pants and a long sleeved shirt to match. Some soft, comfy, warm slippers to match. Christmas music makes me depressed so I don't think we could have any music on. I've had some really sad Christmas memories of not so long ago and I've struggled every year since. This year seems better than some I've had. but Christmas time to me is so SAD!!!!! I want to cry sometimes when I think of it. It shouldn't be this way. I'm glad I have kids even though they're not little anymore, to make it fun for me. Otherwise I don't even think I'd put up a tree or any decorations or do a dang bit of shopping!!! Except for myself, my parents, and my sister!
I hope you can find some comfort in your thoughts of your T and somehow hold on to those until you see him again. I know it's hard and it hurts so very much. Talk about this longing with him so you can understand it.
I wish I could reach out and comfort you cuz I know just how you feel.
LadyBug
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