Posted by muffled on December 19, 2006, at 19:51:39
you tell your T something and at the time it seemed like a good idea, but now you kinda wished you hadn't cuz now she knows and thats bad.
And then your resting in another place after T cuz your so tired and mixed up and you just want to lay there, and T comes along and says you cut your self? and I lay there hiding and I say no, I'm sure I said no, well not sure, but what else would I say cuz I hadn't, and she says show me your hand cuz it was hidden and I did cuz I was out of it and my hand was fine and why didn't she beleive me anyways?
And then she said nice things, something bout trust or something, and she was going shopping or something and did I want to come? and why does she treat me nice?
And she keeps trying to tell me that the bad kid is me and ITS NOT, cuz that kid is gross and is not me.
I told her that gross kid should be dead in a fax later and if that kid is me then WTF.
And I wrote f*ck god in my fax and my T says it too when she reading it aloud. Nothing bothers her. She like a tough boot.
And now no T for 3 wks. I go Jan 9 again , but mebbe I don't go. Cuz I don't want her to look at me. I don't want to look at her.
It all wasn't so nice.
And my T will go home and life goes on.
And I want to do bad things but mebbe I won't. So there.
Sorry,
Vomiting weird crap on the board.
Getting it out of me.
I be OK always I OK.
Muffled
poster:muffled
thread:715097
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